Dismantle. Repair.

sincesheleft:

As my eyes open to the morning light, my body feels exhausted and my mind tells me to roll over and go back to sleep. But you see, it’s not the normal teenage laziness that we all experience in the morning. It’s something that makes my heart drop and my body feel so tired, that I can’t find any reason to crawl out of bed. It’s the thought of having to walk pass my mother and answer her questions, asking me if I’m okay. It’s the moments that I’m quiet around my friends for too long, resulting in them asking if something is on my mind. It’s the moments that I have to walk by you in the hallways and not even say “hello”. My self-esteem has been on a path of twist and turns, and frankly, I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to see your face everytime I close my eyes. I don’t want to see you around the school and feel like total shit. I don’t want to remember the cute little texts that you used to send me in the morning. But the main thing that I don’t want to remember? That we weren’t even a couple.

Thanks so much emyjoelle

I have definitely felt that pain. And just because you weren’t a couple doesn’t mean you still aren’t going to get hurt, that’s the most frightening thing of all… I just loved the feeling of getting through it and finding some one else. He’s a lot better and showed me the pain i went through made me into who I am and made me into a strong wonderful person :)